punkassaris:

For queergladers I hope you like it :) Sorry for the sad

He shouldn’t have gotten involved in this. He promised himself that this couldn’t, it wouldn’t go beyond a one night stand. One simple night of mind blowing sex. But despite all the walls he put up, all the rules he put in place to protect himself he still did it anyways. He found himself breaking each and every rule as the moments passed. Breaking them as if they never existed in the first place. And all because what? the other male smiled at him. Because he made him laugh and cry and though he would never say it out loud, made him feel loved.

He should regret it, he should regret everything. The old Gally would. In fact the old Gally would be laughing in the the new Gally’s face right about now. But somehow Minho came in like a storm. All smirks and smiles, and for once  someone that could keep the pace with Gally’s teasing. He wasn’t soft edges or affection. He wasn’t asking for the world but that was thing wasn’t it, he was Gally’s world. Slowly but surely he crept in to Gally’s heart and he didn’t mind. He didn’t mind at thats what scared him.

Then he was gone. As quickly as Minho ran into his life and flipped everything over, he left it. Left it a mess everything upturned and thrown over like a tornado and destroyed everything Gally had built for himself. He couldn’t blame Minho he only had himself to blame.

He wasn’t gone for good, he wasn’t. But it felt like it. They texted and skyped and called. It should be enough to be able to hear his voice, to be able to know Minho was his and he was Minho’s. But it wasn’t. It wasn’t even close. Maybe Gally was selfish he sure felt like it.

It was selfish for him to want more when Minho was already giving him all he could. Who in their right mind would stay with Gally. Even if he could feel and touch and see him everyday Gally was nothing special.

He wasn’t an idiot, he knew he was good in bed and he had been told on more than one occasion that he was attractive. But thats not enough to keep a relationship strong. Sex is good. Great. But then emotions come into play and thats where Gally always seems to find a way to mess it up.

But not with Minho. It wasn’t about the sex with him. How could it be when he was half way across the country. Minho wanted to be with him. Why? why why why? Gally asked himself that same question every day. How could perfect wonderful Minho want him when he could have so much better. Someone he could touch and see and kiss everyday. Someone who’s not Gally.